I am slowly realising how amazing it is what is happening.
Paul, who travelled the world talking to people like you and me, and we
don't seem to get it. And then, here, at home in little Rosebank, just down
the road, someone gets it - and Wakes Up. I mean really wakes up. Not just
getting better or becoming more open, or evolving into this or that… but
seemingly over night wakes up and pops into a new reality. A reality Paul
always attempted to share with us....
How amazing is that? I am so lucky to be surrounded by these two people
who are available to share about their state to those who want to hear.
Plus, Paul has now a playmate, someone who is totally getting where he lives and
he is enjoying to share with Dianne. Its fun for him to have this confirmation.
I admit at times I have feelings of ....hm what is the word......maybe a
feeling of it being *unfair* - there I was for the last 25 years running
around the planet, visiting gurus, doing all sorts of techniques of
therapy and spiritual practice…. and it seemed that not too much on the inside was
shifting. I was not really feeling any happier. I am not so much invested wake up but I would have liked to have more inner space, more moments of
calm and true happiness. And there is Dianne, who has not been much around,
and she pops straight into the ultimate.
It is still curious to us that hardly anyone has reached out to her. I would
have thought that especially people like you, would have been on Skype right away, wanting to meet her, wanting to feel her or even
just to check her out, to see if its true.....but nobody seems to take any notice.
Paul seems to be less and less able to connect to the majority of people he
knows. Living with him and knowing him so well, I can feel when his energy
gently fades away from people and drifts off. He is still loving, caring,
not judgemental of where people are….. but he is drifting. When I see that
happening with someone who is close to him, I want to say something! I
want to make the person aware, that they way they are going, the gap is
going to be bigger and bigger.....but I am not always successful. People
seem not hear, they just think they do.
I have just tried with someone close, tried to share and possible build a
bridge between him and Paul… and even though this person says Paul is very
important to him, he is not willing or not able to look at this core
behaviour. Just a little bit - as far as he can understand and follow with
his mind…. but no further!
In some way I feel something similar is happening with you. Because I feel
you really mean it, when you say Paul is the most important person in you
life (I think that is what you said earlier?) I feel to reach out somehow
and say: Watch out, he is drifting!
What creates the gap in particular with you I am not sure…. I have not
had much personal contact with you….. I only know there is something in
you that creates the gap, not in Paul.
Sometimes people say, oh he is drifting away in general and maybe they
like to think it as nothing really to do with them....as I experience it, that
is not so.
He is still fully here. Present and bright and funny and cute - and in
touch with the source when he shares.
So all I can say maybe for you to have a deeper look into another level of
your behaviour, patterns, maybe being more vulnerable…. etc. I really
don't know. I would think maybe if you both sit down and tune in, have a look
together, you may find something?
If there is anything I can do,....I am available. So is Dianne.
Sending you lots of love