Apart from the fact that the sharing just stopped, one of the reasons I
stopped sharing is that it became impossible to continue sharing in a way in
which people/we could connect. The job, on that level at least, was done. I
kept going for as long as I could but I knew a few years before it happened
that it was all but over. Then, in an instant, it was over. Done. Gone.
For a very long time I think part of me did try to hold on to the
perspective of what is generally called the reality in which people live --
in order for me to try and keep in contact with the so-called reality in
which they think they are living. Then, job done and not appropriate to
hold it any longer.
Talking to is not the same as connecting. In order to connect to a certain a
frequency range the vibration gap can only be so wide. Once the gap becomes
too wide it is no longer possible -- or appropriate -- for the one sharing
or the one to whom the sharing is happening.
Since the change happened perspective has changed in a way that I find
almost impossible to share -- even to myself really. Maybe I will attempt to
share more about this later in the email.
As I have attempted to share recently, most people think they
understood what I have tried to share and actually they have absolutely no
As I keep saying -- you know for yourself when you have a broader
perspective than the person with whom you are sharing, and you know very
clearly when they are not getting it.
What has come through to share over these years is so big it is right out of
the capacity of any mind to understand. It cannot be understood. Impossible.
The mind and all its ideas is a barrier to this something. If you think you
have any idea of what is being shared, then be sure you do not. It cannot be
understood. It is beyond what can be thought about. For me as well.
And yet it is there.
This 'something' is right out of the dimension of the way we look at
anything. Totally different perspective. So don't try and think about it --
because you can't. All our ideas -- even from our most elevated Buddha's are
based on a certain reality perspective. What is here to share is way, way
beyond, and right out of that perspective. Another reality altogether. In
order to glimpse this we have to stop holding the old -- in any way
whatsoever. 'As a little child...'
I think just a few of the awakened ones were/are living on the edge of that
reality but either did not know how or thought it not appropriate to share
at the time. Seems it is still not time.
(Seems it is not possible to be fully in that other reality and be in the
type of physical body that we know about, at the same time-- although a
seemingly physical body can be manifest.)
Since my system has been realising that it is not going out again, and thus
does not have to attempt to communicate, things have changed/are changing.
(This email form of communication is totally different from the one used
when on tour. This is just projecting the information without any attempt to
have it connect.)
In one way the changing was subtle, and in another way, dramatic.
The changing was gentle, and the realisation immediate.
Suddenly seeing what was always seen, yet seeing without a veil -- the
ridiculousness of our behaviour. Unbelievable.
All that seemed 'important' has faded into -- everything else.
There is a feeling that perspective is going to change so utterly that the
way we look at everything now will be totally irrelevant.
Like a death to all that is -- in the way that it is.