Our current spiritual thinking have been influenced by the great schools of the East. India, China, Tibet are have all been great sources of deep spiritual wisdom. Their advent in the West have help accelerate the understanding of new realities to a wider audience.
Many of you are reporting that you are experiencing unusual behaviour.
This could be: A Good Thing - a new level of awakening is happening.
And it is - for many.
In the East the stages of awakening have been documented.
The most detailed is said to have been written by Patanjali.
It is said he has documented every possible level and symptom of awakening.
Trouble is, even apart from being written in Sanskrit, in order to
understand what he has written - you have to be awakened!
Then you don't need to read his writings - you can write your own!
Although there are variations, many of The Symptoms are similar.
They are called: 'Confirmatory Signs' - meaning they are an indication of
the level you have attained / remembered.
As most of you will know, the Eastern map of the body is sectioned into
several centres in the body - usually called: Chakras.
Different approaches declare varying numbers of these centres ranging from
three - to lots. The most popular is seven and that is what we will use as
Often the first level is depicted as a coiled snake - at the Base Chakra -
at the base of the spine.
As the snake uncoils the energy is said to move up through the body -
opening up the chakras, and thus the levels of consciousness.
In my experience the centres do not always open evenly, or sequentially -
so don't jump to any conclusions too early. And, it is true that, if the
centres do not open sequentially then there can be extra discomfort.
Discomfort (Dark Night of the Soul) is experienced in proportion to the
level of acceptance / resistance.
Over the next few paragraphs I will be describing just some of most usual
experiences. Then you can check your 'progress!'
After the first signs of awakening the energy of the 'sleeping serpent'
moves into the second level: The life-giving Sexual Centre.
Of course this level is always activated, but when the awakening energy
moves into it the sexual energy is felt differently - and very strongly.
(Then, in pops guilt.)
The awakening energy is very different from what people normally feel.
When most people feel sexual it is the reproduction instinct that is
restricted and pressured by the suppressed/negated/denied/conditioned/fear-
oriented religious programming. Lust. Very sinful.
(If people feel free to have sex when they feel like it - in theory at
least, we will not get much done. And then, people will not be controllable.
So the basic instinct is denied - so people feel guilty - and have to come
for forgiveness - otherwise they can't go to heaven.
Heaven must be full of very boring people.)
When the awakening sexual energy starts to move it can feel (wonderfully)
overwhelming. It takes over the mind and body - which, if accepted, and not
resisted, in a delightful way.
The actual sexual act is then very different from what has previously been
experienced. It is softer. Instead of a contraction in order to have an
orgasm, it is a gentle expanded feeling that slips into a flowing - and
often ongoing delightful experience. There is a strong feeling of love - for
the partner, oneself, and the universe in general. The feeling can last for
days. Or forever - if you will let it.
Your whole view of life changes. You are in love. Not the usual kind of
self/only-one-other love, but an expanded feeling that includes - everything
and everybody. There is dance and song in everything you do. You glow.
Then the sexual energy drops into balance.
It is not longer an issue - one way or the other, and you will become aware
that that energy we call sex is included in absolutely everything.
Then the energy moves on up to the next level - the Hara / survival / anger.
More of that in the next instalment.
In the meantime, do enjoy the sexual level.
(It is very, very rare to meet an uninhibited person)
Without the guilt it is truly delightful - and, although it may not
completely disappear, it will diminish in importance to you.
So don't miss this delightful stage! (And don't get too addicted either)
Happy sexual exploration...
Western Tantra is not Eastern Tantra.
There are many schools/disciplines' of Tantra, and one of them includes
intimate sexual contact with a partner. Although sex is included, the
emphasis is not on the sex (no orgasms please) but intimate union with God.
Eastern Tantra is conducted by a Tantric Master.
The first stage is meditation. After a certain level is reached the Master
pairs off couples. Each person is to see their partner as God - therefore
even to look at the partner is too presumptive. After a while, looking, then
speaking, then touching, then sexual intercourse - with God.
For you? No need to take it so seriously.
Having fun as well is more balanced.
I was mildly surprised the other day to read that someone had not realised
just how corrupted and insidious is religion. I consider it, together with
marriage, one of the most destructive institutional energies on the planet -
as I do anything that attempts to take away our self responsibility.
(That we are stupid enough to follow is another subject.)
So I wondered how many of you are also under an illusion about Buddhism?
Unlike Christianity, there seems to be many written eyewitness reports about
Everything I have read about Buddha is that he was a highly intelligent
being with very simple ways. Simple way of living. Simple clothes.
No ceremony. Just simple day to day living.
Now look at 'Buddhism"! At least equally ridiculous as the Vatican.
Did you know?
When Buddha died, instantly there were thirty-two different sects created?
Buddha is quoted as saying: "If you meet me on the way, kill me."
And, 'do not worship images.' There must be as many statues of Buddha as
there is of Jesus hanging on the cross - who is also quoted as saying 'do
not worship graven images.'
At least the statues of Buddha portray him as happy and peaceful.
What a stupid species we are.
One thing Buddha has bequeathed us - is to remind us to meditate.
The most simple form is: just sitting. Very difficult for most minds - even
the more simple Eastern ones.
Of course there are many 'methods.'
One you can do, almost anywhere, is to follow your breath - in and out.
At the peak of the input and output there is a 'still point.'
(Many years ago I wrote a book: 'The Art of Sitting.'
One day I will look it up and send a chapter.)
Take the smoking and drinking habit he picked up about six months ago after giving it up for some time. So many disciples are against this behavior, worry that he’s turned into a drunk, that he’s starving himself, and want him to stop. Firstly, he is an Aghori and is above intoxication. Aghoris can take intoxicants without getting any affect that mere mortals do. He drinks beer and alcohol all day and night without consuming any food, and I’ve never seen him drunk. In fact, alcohol has more of an uplifting energetic effect since I took Aghori diksha, initiation, rather than a slothing, numbing effect of the past. Secondly, he made a karmic exchange to remove one disciple’s smoking habit a while back and has kept the ten percent for himself. Thirdly, because of the prayoga, black magic, it makes him vomit out food even before it goes into the stomach. I’ve seen this illness, achalasia, in my biological brother, who had it for more than ten years of his life. Also, I know that yogis have the ability to survive on the energy of the sun itself without any food, just on pranic energy.
As a mere mortal and yogini myself, I’ve fasted and engaged in intoxicating practices before and throughout my path and have come out fine. My Aghori impressions didn’t leave me either, so I can understand Maitreya’s way of living. But these people who worry about him and try to tell him how to live his life don’t really understand what is going on. They see only through the illusion of how normal people would and nag accordingly.
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In addition to the personal, there is family, group, and country.
You may of heard of a person who was too late to board a plane, or was
'bumped off' because of overbooking - and the plane crashes and kills all
aboard. Or when the plane or car crashes, or the boat sinks, one person is
saved. One plane broke up at 30,000 feet - and one person survived the fall!
There are accounts of many people who had unusual circumstances that
prevented them to get to work on time on 9/11.
Could be coincidence of course, or it may indeed be Karma.
If it is true that countries have Karma, then we are in for an interesting
time aren't we. Saying, 'Sorry we invaded your country, murdered as many of
you as we could, treated you worse than dogs, and took away and violated
your mixed race children' does not count - unless the feeling is genuine,
and the survivors are being treated appropriately.
It is said that the German people who are alive now are not the ones who
participated in the WWII atrocities. True. Or the people who invaded
America, Australia - and almost every country in the world. But check it out
- is that energy still there? Are those governments now truly unsupportive
of such actions? Don't think so.
The way I have seen it is, if the person is truly repentant, and resolves
that, under any circumstance whatsoever they would never do that act again,
then the energy is balanced. Still may be consequences, but the energy is
Karma is said to be any action, word, or thought about which we are not
fully and unconditionally conscious. Owch.
Reminder - not to take it too seriously...
next step toward a luminous physical and spiritual expression.
The Kundalini is in everyone. It is an untapped resource of
divinity within us all that is waiting to be awakened and experienced.
Never has the time been so right and crucial for a change of this
magnitude to be explored and initiated. And so, let me introduce
you to the power within you, right now at this very moment.
Kundalini is a very powerful and transformative energy
located at the base of the spine within the last three vertebrae
of the tailbone or coccyx, extending to the perineum. Kundalini
is a natural birthright to all people but must be sought and
nurtured with a physical and spiritual practice.
The choices we make can have an effect upon the way our
Kundalini flow will express. If we make choices that are
not in our best interests, as judged by the Kundalini, the
experience can be harsh or with varying degrees of difficulty.
If we make choices that are supported by the Kundalini the
experience can be gentle.
Sometimes we must learn from having pain. This is a character
trait of people and it comes from an over emphasized need to
maintain a familiar comfort level rather than having change
come into the personal equation.
If you make choices to have certain phenomena not knowing
the full ramifications of the phenomena it may be a teaching
for you to learn more information before committing to that
choice. Having can be very different from wanting.
In the west we do not have as much ethical and validated
experiential information of the Kundalini. We have those
who practice Kundalini Yoga which isn't the same as having
an awakened Kundalini. We have people practicing Kundalini
Reiki which also isn't the same. We have authors writing about
the Kundalini without ever having experienced it. It can be difficult
to discern the truth of the subject in this environment. Yet it can
be done. It is a process of discernment and a process of not allowing
personal ego wishes and desires of attention, power, or position to
hold sway over the decision making and expressive process.
The ramifications of certain choices can be very long lasting.
Explorations of certain belief systems carry interactive phenomena
that can snare or trap a person into the specific equations of that system.
Rituals, entities, incantations, exaltation and subjugation can have
results that are not pleasant and indeed are geared towards the expression
of pain that can be endured for many years. These can be systems that
are not moral as we in the west understand morality to be.
These systems can actively work to try and subvert the individual
who is searching for phenomena or exaltation or many of the ego
forms of desire based conditions associated with the Kundalini.
Some of these systems are for the subversion of the Kundalini
awakened individual. Typically these do nothing for the Kundalini
they merely trap the person into a continuing loop of ego expression
with pain. Forcing more and more karma to be collected for balancing
in future existences and slowing down the evolutionary process.
Sometimes this is a needed process. There is no rush and it isn't a race.
By slowing down we can learn from the elements of our choices and
make determinations of where we can improve from a soul perspective
our continuing journey.
Morality is a definite substantive expression within the Kundalini
experience. It can act as a compass for the individual with regards
to personal positions of interaction among other people and within
themselves. Morality can steer a person clear of systems that are
generative of ego supported expressions of control typically over
others. Many questions about the individual and the Kundalini can be
answered through the fulcrum or the moral imperatives.
We can learn about how we seek and use power. Power over
ourselves as discipline, or power over others, power over the
environment, power of the environment over us, or the power to
not attach to the idea of power. We can ask our self where we are
with regards to the choice of power inside of our Kundalini and we
can listen and feel the Kundalini respond. We can take that response
and bring it into conscious expression.
There is a constant influx of moral choices to be made on a daily
if not hourly time frame. All of them will hold a guidance to be
received or not. We can choose this. We can choose to hear the
moral guidance or to ignore it even if we hear it, or to not hear it at all.
These choices can be very difficult. But for those who can manage
the intense personal honesty that can be required by the Kundalini
the pattern of choices can become a guiding feature in the expression
of the new divine body being awakened within them. This is what I
When we embrace a morality that is guided by the Kundalini and
not by our ego will or by the society we live in we can begin to base
all of our responses towards others on a paradigm of moral interaction
that has more in common with the divine expressions emergence within
us than that of the old familiar points of moral response we have come
to know in our past interactive experiences. A new paradigm of moral
Forgiveness is one aspect of this new moral paradigm. Forgiveness
can allow a person to detach from the idea of revenge or vindictiveness
or from the holding of a grudge from an unsolicited attack by another person.
The feelings of revenge and its many aspects are a form of bondage
that can trap us into expressions of anger that can gravitate into hatred.
We can learn not to succumb to these feelings of anger and to
neutralize them at the start by evoking forgiveness as quickly as
possible and for as many repeated expressions of forgiveness as is
needed. Forgiveness is the key to learning that we need not attach to
anger or sorrow or rage or revenge. Freedom is the result of the
forgiveness process. Freedom from attachment and from the
karma that can come with attachment.
Tolerance is another moral choice of allowing a person to be as they
are without judgment or inflicted negativity based upon that way of being.
Even when those persons activities are hurtful and harmful to themselves.
If they are hurtful or harmful to us and others and are actively reaching out
towards us in these ways we can protect our self and we can choose to keep
a distance and this isn't incorrect as we will not always be in harmony with
everyone and some distance can be a good thing. We can choose not to go
to the level of the attacker.
Truth will often defray an attacker of forward momentum if they
are coming from a deceitful expression. Stating truth can be difficult
and it can seem harsh if it is a difficult truth to be given but it can be
very helpful to all involved even if it may seem that the person isn't
receiving it, on some level they are receiving and it may be the seed
that is planted for a later harvest. This is an aspect of love.
Compassion for another even when they are being duplicitous or
deceitful can be given. Sometimes a harsher discourse of service is
needed to help another gain a level of personal understanding and
we can choose to not fear this type of communication. Sometimes
this type of communication can be fairly common in the west.
Compassion for others is another moral choice. We can have
compassion for another whom we can correctly interpret as
being in pain. We can help or come to their aid if it is asked
for and sometimes even if it isn't asked for as emergencies of
life and limb will preempt any kind of permission unless they
are consciously asking you not to help. Sometimes the pain of
injury can be so intense that a person will not be able, through
the pain, to give conscious permissions.
Kundalini will most often gravitate towards the loving
interactions. Most often this frequency and the many related
frequencies of the loving interaction will carry and attract the
Kundalini response. When discussing love it is not the romantic
qualities that are being specifically discussed. Love comes in
many formats and the romance is only one aspect of many
regarding this quality of expression.
Tough love or love that is being given through the actions of
a discipline sometimes harsh can be far more effective and
helpful than the application of love as expressed inside of
romance. Love offers us many moral choices and it is to us to
discern how best to proceed sometimes in the space of a heartbeat.
We have many options to choose from in our expression of
daily life. For the Kundalini awakening it is helpful to choose
to examine every single response and reaction we have in our
interactions with others and our self in order to learn how to
sculpt the new divine body into the living expression of enlightenment.
This will take some work and it will take the ability to surrender.
Surrender the will of the ego to the Kundalini instruction.
With practice it becomes as easy as breathing. - blessings – chrism
© chrism 2009
Chrism is a native of California residing in the city of Santa Rosa.
He travels the country awakening the Kundalini in groups of people
safely and with continued support throughout the many years of the
Kundalini awakening experience. Kundalini as it expresses through
Chrism is the teacher.
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A real-life experience of the Eastern classical story:
'Searching for Ones' Self' Thank for sharing this Martinchen.
Those that wake up usually say there is nothing to do, it happens on its
own. Maybe, but most of them, like Martinchen, were total in their searching
- before it happened 'on its own.'
There is the classical story of a young man starting out to search for The
Tree of Life. On his way out of the village he saw a man sitting under a
tree. He asked the man if he knew the direction to go to look for the tree.
The pointed ahead.
Years later the now much older young man came back to his village -
unsuccessful in finding The Tree.
Just before he came to the village he saw the same man - sitting under The
Tree of Life! And he understood. Even if the man had told him he would not
have recognised it.
It is here. It is now. We just have to slow down and experience this very
moment - unconditionally.
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I am a school teacher and I was travelling around for about twenty years
in order to search for myself. I tried all kinds of stuff. One day, I
realized that there is nothing to search for or to find. Just breathing
in and out and to laugh about the ridiculousness of life is enough. All
these years, I was looking for change, but the only thing I did was to
escape from myself by not wanting to feel the helplessness of each
It was my own greed that wanted me to be different. Without the
advertisers who made me believe in a goal and in this way gave me a
goal, I would have never started the search. It was kind of tricky – but
Each day, when I wake up views change. I do not do anything about them,
they just change all by themselves. Now, I am married. I am teaching
children to earn money and I live in Southern Germany. After such a long
time, I am starting to live the adventure of life. I am learning not to
run away from what life is giving me or to reject it, since I know that
it was all created by my words, thoughts, actions and feelings. It is my
The Structure of GOD Bad Mergentheim, 1964 (audio No. 5)
MAHARISHI: ...GC we say, is something special, something different in
its structure and quality than CC. In order to understand this, we`ll
understand the whole structure of GOD. Gross state of creation, your gross
state of mantra, gross state of thinking and then subtle state, subtle,
subtle and then transcend it - this field of subtlest creation is the field
of celestial life. Transcending this is absolute Being. In the relative
field there are various planes, gross and subtle and then subtlest,
subtlest ( he is using a board).
GOD we define as one presiding over the
relative and the Absolute. Someone in the subtlest field of creation here
(the relative field) will be almighty for the entire creation for sure,
because his status is in the subtlest field of life. He is also almighty.
But this almighty is in the relative field. Absolute Being is also almighty
in the sense that this is the basis of the entire creation, as the
nourishment is the basis of all ...
So the unmanifested Being is also
almighty, but this is almighty in the absolute status. GOD is that,
presiding over this(relative) and this(absolute). GOD we exemplified as the
government, all powerful government. Government has to be represented by
someone. Government is represented by parliament and again it is
represented by a president. Parliament is one government, president is one
government. This here (subtlest relative) is like the president, some God
here, someone in the relative field, some God (Devata), angels and then
highest type of angels, some almighty being in the relative field, who have
the existence in the celestial field of life, in heaven, we could say. He
is like the president who symbolizes the government. But there is another
power which even goes higher than the president and that higher power would
be that which presides over this (relative) and this (absolute) which we
have said GOD. Does it make sense?
Like the parliament (it) is all
powerful, it can throw and install even the president. The president belongs
to the relative field, head of the state. That is the head of the entire
creation of manifested, relative order. Someone here, some God, who may be
`he` or `she`, whomsoever the parliament appoints. And the real overlord
of creation, the GODhead of everything is like the parliament. Whenever
some disorder takes place, when the existing law of the president is not
able to control the territory, something wrong happens and becomes
difficult to be managed, then a commission is appointed. for that
particular work. The commission goes there, makes inquiries, brings the
report and settles the whole thing there. Like the commission of the
government are the Incarnations (Avataras), all this we hear of
They don't belong to this field of celestial life, they can't
belong to the Absolute, they belong to that field or they belong to that
authority which overrules, which is the GODhead, they represent GODhead. So
these Incarnations are the expressions of GOD. And the purpose of these
Incarnations is to reestablish law and order. And what for? In order that
the process of evolution may go on unhindered. When in some area people
begin to do mischief, go opposite the path of evolution, do something
wrong, go against Dharma, then some Incarnation comes, restores law and
order by means of education and maybe sometimes punishment also, whatever
is needed for that particular occasion. (They) establish the law and
order, establish the path of righteousness, establish this TM. It has been
from time to time and (they) give a direct way to liberation. This has been
from times immemorial, ever since the creation was created....
Bhairavi originates from Sanskrit as Bha Ra Va. Maitreya wrote the Bhairava Tantra for Gurudev, and the ancient reference is from the Yogini Hrydaya: [mantra] “Visvashya bharanat vamanat shushti stithi samhārakāri parasivaha” - the shiva almighty lord creates this universe, he nourishes it and again he dissolves it into himself, that is why Bhairava is the ultimate energy and his shakti, his energy, is Bhairavi. Bibhite klesho yasmādithi bhairavaha - all the sorrows, pains, agonies and accidents who creates, he is Bhairava because to come out of all that we have to worship his shakti, Bhairavi.
“Bhairavaha sarva shakti bharitaha” – all those energies, siddhis, are his family to the Bhairava, so we should worship Bhairavi, his energy, to attain all the energies.
This entire concept of time is Bhairava’s form. One who desires to grow above time has to worship his energy; that is Bhairavi. One sadhaka who gives up lust, greed, passion, everything becomes his Bhairavi, his energy. The union of a Bhairavi and Bhairava is the union of absolute reality. The path of Shiva and Shakti exists as the same, but the path of the Bhairava cult involves direct relationship through the human agonies and sufferings to grow out of them. We dive right into that which we want to evolve from. As you can imagine, the path of the Bhairavi is very intense. It is intense in enjoyment, where every desire is fulfilled to lead to dissolution from it. So a Bhairavi cannot be any female; only those who have reached a certain level of growth can handle this level of enjoyment. Only one with so many births can this level of enjoyment prevent personal enslavement to such human afflictions, as those not able to evolve out of them can become addicted and further enslaved. The Bhairava worships his Bhairavi, and together they do their sadhana to uplift themselves to higher levels of consciousness. And a Bhairavi constantly thinks about her Guru, as she is dissolved into him.
Aghori – The Bhairavi path also belongs to the path of the Aghora, that which is not impure. Nothing is impure to the Bhairavi. Ghora is that which is impure. In our past lives, Maitreya was, and still is, Aghori Kharpara Bharati, and I was, and am, Bhajrani, his Bhairavi. While human nature allows us to forget the memories of our past lives, the samskāras, the impressions are still there when we take our next birth. So over and over we question, why do I keep doing the same mistakes? What is the reason behind it? Why me? These questions never resolve themselves, actually they make the burdens more difficult to overcome. Instead of thinking so, acceptance of who we are without knowing our past mistakes serves an ability to accept all. Then all facets of the human existence will be considered as not impure, or pure. Aghoris worship such items as human skulls, and use them in rituals as a way to face the hidden truth. Ordinary people will condemn such practices as disgusting or evil, but the skull is a beautiful part of the human body. Everyone has one, it is just that we don’t see a skull in living beings that reminds us of the future death to come. This is the death that we fear, and Aghori does not have the fear death, nor fear that which we cannot see with the naked eye. As blood is feared when it pours out of a wound, actually it is the living material within us, we just now have to look at the pain associated with it. And again, the Aghori cares not about pain, but openly acknowledges it and worships it.
I received my first human skull directly at a smashan, burial ground, when I visited the Samadhi, final resting place, of Amritānanda’s Guru. I prayed to him and continued on a short walk through the field to a small village. On the same pathway back, a local villager showed me a skull. Immediately, my eyes lit up like a child to a new toy, and I asked for it. He rinsed it in some water, packed it up and I took it back to the ashram. I never verbally told Amrita Guruji, only mentally I told him, because I did not want to bring it in temple for the public to see. Most people would never understand this path and it was not the time for such a relic to be released. The perfect time did come when I visited Maitreya in Hyderabad, and we were talking about skulls. I told my son, Varma, that I had one. He wanted to see it, and I unpacked it. He and Maitreya chanted Bhairava mantras as they placed their hands on it, imbibing the powerful energies into the skull. It now sits in the puja room as a living relic. In fact, he is joked to be my first husband.
Naked – A Bhairavi is totally naked to the truth. We come out exposed and naked to the reality. When a person exposes themselves, there is nothing to hide that protects you from your incredibly strong ego. We live unshielded from anyone or any inhibitions. Truthfully speaking, I always want to be naked. The hot weather is suffocating in this country, and I prefer to lie around the peetham in the buff all day long. In modern Indian society, they cannot tolerate seeing the skin of a woman. So constantly we play this game of locking the door and closing the windows, when men can walk around shirtless with no problem. There are mosquitoes nightly and the hot sun daily, so coverage is necessary. But when in the public only the arms, face and feet are exposed, as well as the flash of belly and back when wearing a sari. Exposing yourself in India is considered a sin, because the woman’s body is considered sacred. So why do they want to cover up such a sacred temple that deserves to be worshipped? Because of Indian suppressions, even women themselves fall into this trap.
I want to be revealed all the time, and I encourage others to let everything out so that we are left with no identity to hide. People cannot tolerate this because a Bhairavi will call you out on all your shit. We want to bring all of your inhibitions up to the surface so they can be dissolved. There is no embarrassment to the Bhairavi because we accept any faults and let them turn over quickly. I have the innate timing to be at the right place at the right time to show people exactly what they have been hiding, whether they like it or not. This can bring enemies, temporary or permanent, but it is only done out of love for them to see them grow out of their inhibitions. So, people like Nirmala and Sobha cannot stomach my presence at all. Nirmala came over last night saying she wanted to do some seva for Maitreya, but also wanted some privacy to get laid. A Bhairavi has nothing to hide, everything to reveal, so she would never need any privacy. She asked him to ask me to hide in the puja room while they had sex all in a full sari. I am such a cooperative Bhairavi that I would gladly be of service to them, chant mantras, apply lubrication, anything to show love to a fellow Bhairavi. But alas, the great Bhairavi tradition is lost in India, and the situation was what it was. Even Americans cannot digest my presence when I open my mouth, because they do not like their suppressions and mistakes blasted out to the universe. But a Bhairavi is fearless about themselves and their loved ones.
Not a wife – A Bhairavi is not a wife at all, although our love is purer than any married couple. While Maitreya is my ever-beloved from so many thousands of years, we are not subject to the social constraints that a typical marriage has. In fact we are not even legally married, nor really care to, even though we are expecting biological children. We did promise ourselves and declare our love privately, but without any witnesses and the pomp and circumstance dog show. Maitreya says that no spiritual cult can hold a couple together, only the love can keep them together. That’s why he says that if we have the love we can be together, if we don’t have the love then we cannot be together. So there is no need for us to be wed. There is a Sanskrit term that so describes this form of marriage of nymphs, gandharva vivaha, celestial marriage, where a boy and girl agree to marry in private without the presence of any witness or spiritual cult, and they are considered married. This doesn’t exist openly in modern society anywhere, so again we challenge the social norms.
Usually sexual monogamy is assumed in a love union, but a Bhairavi and a Bhairava do not uphold such ideas. Ananda Bhairavis and Ananda Bhairavas practice vama tantra, where sexual union is a central part of the ritual. In our case, Maitreya is also known as Aghori Kharpara Bharati, where he had many Bhairavis and partook in vama tantra and uplifted many Bhairavis to the celestial world. Those that surrendered completely to their Guru aren’t roaming the world any longer, while those that didn’t, like me, still exist today. In the past, I did practice vama tantra with him, but kept dodging and leaving him lifetimes over and over again. Some of us have been cursed by our Guru, that they are even living in a male body in this life but show huge potential as a Bhairavi. But we don’t just fall off the trees, so don’t expect to go out on a date with one expecting a great fuck. Bhairavis are very hard to find, and would only be revealed to those who have this kind of karmic connection. If you find a Bhairavi and try to marry her like any mere mortal, good luck if you have any idea of what that kind relationship is, because it won’t be that.
A healer – Bhairavis are great natural healers. Daily Maitreya and I do pranic healing for ourselves and our children to clear negative energy. Our family is currently hit by some prayoga, tantric black magic, so we are constantly working to keep our family together. We also massage constantly for healing and to bring back the wonderful yoga of touch back to this Indian society that is so afraid of touching each other, especially the opposite sex.
Works with the weather – Bhairavis have the ability to work with or affect their weather surroundings. During her evening of Navaratri, nine nights of worship for the Mahavidyas, the ten great wisdom goddesses, I started to experience it directly. The goddess Chinnamasta literally means “severed head.” We cut off our own head which means cutting off the thoughts to reach Absolute Reality. When doing the Chinnamasta sadhana, I was able to connect with the electrical field, and lightning storms followed me while driving through the entire state of New York to Pennsylvania. The Chinnamasta energy works with lightning, and also will disrupt any electrical equipment, so be careful when you use computers, cell phones, stereos and such items because they will go away, and again you have to surrender to that in your normal life. When I did a Bhairavi fire worship, a raging storm of heavy rain, lightning and thunder hit directly at midnight the moment I walked out the door.
Coincidence you may say, but the Bhairavi does have this power as she is totally in tune with Mother Nature.